Three Down and only one to go of the more difficult chemo. I am told that the twelve weekly treatments following these won't be as difficult. I hope they are right. This one wasn't quite as bad as the one before. My meds for nausea were adjusted so it is a little more tolerable. Not great, though! My bed is my best friend now.
Yesterday we were invited by the Miles Perret Center to a Christmas Party at the Harley Davidson Place in Scott. I had told the girls we would go, but didn't feel that great, so Blanche drove us over there and we were treated to a sweet little Christmas Party and the girls each got a really nice gift and got to visit with "SANTA"!! As I look at the pictures I am realizing how grown up they've become over the past few months, not just because they are growing up, but because of the emotional trials they (we) have been through since my diagnosis. All of it has brought us closer together and more sensitive to each others needs. It is all good, just emotionally challenging at times.
When we were offered the photo op on the Harley, the girls weren't too excited, but I really wanted to sit on a Harley, so they humored me and took the picture!
After that we came home and I went straight to bed. I am learning to give in when I should, even without guilt, cuz I know I need the rest and the healing time! I know and trust that I will soon be feeling joyful most of the time again, but for now I am just being honest with what it is! Today is better, each day is better! Angie, my sister is in town, at my mom's next door, helping confuse today's menu, which is why we'll end up with TWO roasts instead if one!! I do hope I get the old fashioned spaghetti/cheese (macaroni) casserole I requested just like my grandma used to make! It was great for Angie to come lay in my bed and hold me! I needed that. I am loved, yes I am loved!!
"I think of the good old days, long since ended, when my nights were filled with joyful songs. I search my soul and think about the difference now."
Psalm 77
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