When I was a little girl I had a book called CAPS FOR SALE! The man would walk around with a bunch of hats on his heads, selling them around town. I read that book over and over. The other day I decided to put all my hats on my head and I reminded myself of the man in the book. I have grown quite fond of, yes even dependent on my hats. Typically, I only wear my wig, when I am out and about, (which is not often!) The wig, although it makes me feel esthetically confident, really is uncomfortable after a while. Yesterday Ricky drove me to Lafayette to run a few errands and do a little work. On the way home I got so claustrophobic wearing the wig, I just needed to take IT OFF!!! But I didn't have any hats in the suburban to replace it if I took off the wig. The hats keep my head warm, and not quite as many people do double takes when they see you. It is probably the insecurity of being "Exposed" that I really dislike the most. Ricky came to my rescue with his LSU cap and I was able to take off the wig. Home is my comfort zone, wig or no wig, hat or no hat. The people in my home have adjusted to what I am going through, they know that tears are usually fleeting and fever eventually goes away. They know what my bald head looks like and they know I miss my hair! Others happen upon my bald head, when they come to visit. Somehow thats not too bad, because I am comfortable at home no matter who comes in the door. It is my space, my place to heal, almost like a safe cocoon!
Every year for Valentine's Day, Blair and I and a few other hairdressers go to school for Locks of Love Day, when some of Rayne Catholic's elementary girls donate their pony tails to those who have lost their hair due to illness and /or chemo. It is always a very powerful, meaningful celebration! This is the first year I will do this with a bald head myself!! It brings a whole new meaning to the beautiful gesture, these girls are doing! This year the kids will pay to be able to wear red or pink and the proceeds will benefit the Miles Perret Center. What an awesome event to be a part of!
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Cute photo. I have also read that book alot and you did a great impression, LOL. Keep your spirits up and GOd will get you through this. You are a special person inside and out and I know he's doing this through you for a reason. You may not feel that way, and you might think "Oh its easy for you to say", but I know there is a reason. Your awesome. GOd Bless
Love Crystal JUdice
My CRAZY Friend,
Always expect the unexpected with you! Who else would think about taking this picture(and still look great)!! I know in my heart that you will have just the right words to share with the girls on Valentine's Day when they give "their hair". I am honored that this will be the year that my child will share. You see my friend, whether you know this or not, one of the most profound things I have learned from you is to LET GO OF THE FEAR!! You are still teaching me more than you will ever know.
Love, Dawn
A just-man Jesus could love us but never save us; but a God-man Jesus?? Near enough to touch. Strong enough to trust. A next door Savior....m-m-m- As a child instinctively knows when he is in the arms of his father and feels safe...so are we in the arms of our Father!!!
This morning at my Language Teacher Inservice, we got on the topic of favorite children's books. I told them about you and your cancer dance and your blog, your collection of hats, AND your favorite childhood book! I asked everyone if they had heard of "Caps for Sale" and whether or not it was still in print. Lisa quickly answered that she had a copy in her classroom and that she wants you to have it. So be on the lookout for "Caps for Sale" in the mail!
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